— let go of all that no longer serves you– says the wise yoga teacher
So, as I explained in the previous post, I’m doing my blog audit. I’ve got rid of all the nasty harsh visuals and it’s looking nice. Then I get to the header, the strip of pant ankles. I don’t hate it — it’s got a nice flow. It’s distinctive*, but not gimmicky. But still “let go of all that….”
Let’s backtrack a little. Teacherpants started as a name rather than an image. There was a lot going on there — an extended Facebook conversation about pants, the epithet “smartypants” that may or may not have been slung at me in my youth, and of course the epoch-making Bossypants , but I didn’t really have a clear image in my mind. When I was putting the visual parts of the blog together, I googleimaged Teacher pants, and got a sea of extremely unflattering garments, the business casual equivalent of Mom jeans.
Well fair enough, I’m sure we all have a pair of those, a pair of pants that we can throw on with just about anything, reasonably comfortable, nothing too tight or too trendy, probably black, probably some kind of capris. They are the sartorial analogue of the go-to-lesson that supply teachers have ready-photocopied and filed in their schoolbags**, there waiting for those days when you have to be in a classroom at a minute’s notice.
These teacher pants seemed to confirm a certain preconceived notion of teaching as a kind of default profession, a safe, suburban, uneventful job that smart people did if they couldn’t think of anything else to do.
Well I didn’t see teaching that way, and I certainly didn’t want the blog to contribute to that view.
So …. not those pants, then.
So there was a new Google image search for pants. I found a shot from the catwalk of a fashion show, cropped it so that it fit into the header dimensions, thereby also removing the part of the pants that revealed the bodies underneath. So the pants were presented purely as garments, the most impractical, luxurious examples I could find. It was ironic, and I hoped a little subversive. ⇒ What you mean when you say Teacherpants, is not the same as what I mean.****
And it has served me well, but I think it’s time to move on. Teacherpants isn’t really about that any more. Or maybe it still is about taking risks and heroism, but I no longer see that as something I need to prove. I feel that the Teacherpants voice has developed a degree of autonomy: through my writing, I have defined my pants.
The header on my current page came with the WordPress theme I know it’s a bit of a Robert Frost-y cliche, but it’s a pretty shot and it does capture a little of the spirit of the blog, the introspective journey, the moodiness. I’ll leave it up for a while. Probably something more apropos will come along eventually, but I’m not going to force it.
I’ll let go when it no longer serves me.
*although perhaps a little too much like this
**well ideally — I don’t know whether I personally was ever that conscientious
*** and also
**** probably if you were really clever, you could do something with Roland Barthes here, but all I remember about him right now is that he was run over by a car because he was reading while crossing the road